Winning Her Heart Again

Chapter 94: A Mistake Jasmine's POV

What am I doing? Push him, Jasmine! Damn it. Don't kiss him. Instead of pushing him away, my hand travelled through his neck. I felt our position changed, and he was now on top while I was sitting on a wooden chair.

Damn it! Why can't I do it? I even feel dizzy. He was about to touch me somewhere when I got myself back. I pushed him as hard as I could, which made him distance himself. I saw how he looked at me like he wanted more. I messed up my hair while crying. Fuck I did it again. I'm so foolish!

"What's wrong?" He asked me if he didn't like that we stopped kissing. I shook my head, I stood up, but he stopped me.

"Let go of me, Travis. That was not right. Just forget what happened. We were both drunk" I tried to calm myself and wiped my tears.

Why should I always suffer? I shouldn't have let him kiss me.

"We both did it, Jaz; I know you still love me." He tried to cup my face, but I just gave him a hard slap. Is that the reason why he is so foolish? Thinking that I might still be in love with him, that's why he's chasing me so he could play with me again? I can't believe him! What an arrogant man!

"You know what? Stop dreaming. You're always like that. You will always find my weakness, but this time, you were wrong. I am no longer in love with you, Travis. God, this is a big mistake." I turned around and left him there. I even heard him curse. After that, I didn't come in directly. I went to the park. I touched my lips, and even now, I could still feel his lips pressed into mine. In my frustration, I got a bottle of water in my car and used it to clean my mouth.

I started crying again. Damn it! I shouldn't have kissed him back. Fuck. I made another mistake again. When will I be able to learn from my mistake?

You are supposed to avoid Jasmine. Why did you kiss him? Why did you let him kiss you? Have you lost your mind? I'm so fuck off!

I look insane right now, but I don't care. I can't just let out this feeling inside me. I wanted to cry so badly and rant, but I chose to keep my silence. But for the first time. I already said those words that I've been thinking about for the past years to him. But I never heard any response. I'd been waiting for him to answer me, but he couldn't even say anything.

Maybe because that was it, that was his decision, that's what he liked. To cheat. To abandon me. Seeing me suffering that day. Maybe there's really no need to answer questions. There's no literal reason for his actions; what he did was his own personal choice.

I also wanted to hear his side, even for just now, but he couldn't tell me. I don't understand him, and maybe I will never understand him because that's what he is.

About the kiss? That was literally

nothing. Right? That was just nothing, Jasmine. Tomorrow

morning when you wake up, just et

pretend like nothing happened. You used to show everyone that you were okay, even if you were always crying in the middle of the night.

You did surpass without him, and I know you will still strive without him.

"Just like what you are always doing, get up and pretend to be okay" I wiped my tears and stood up. I tried to smile.

But while I was walking, I bumped into someone. I held my forehead. I tried to Apologize to that person, but when I looked at who it was, it was Paul. How did he end up here? I thought he was at the party. "Why are you here alone at this hour?" He asked me. I sighed, and I was about to pass him by when he held my arm.

"What is your problem again, Paul?" I lost interest while asking him. I just wanted to go home and rest.

He suddenly pulled me to sit in the chair. He then handed me a coffee, which I didn't notice he was holding. I just got it and zipped the coffee.

"Stress?" he asked. I wanted to chuckle because his question was too obvious.

"For a lot of things," I continued, resting my back on the chair.

I looked above, and there were so many stars shining together with the moon.

"I'm amazed. I thought I already knew you, but now you are stronger than I thought." He also drinks his coffee. His words caught my attention, and I looked at him.

"What do you mean?" I'm curious about what he said. He just looked straight without looking at me.

The first time I saw you, your beauty was captivating. It was like someone would really fall in love with you at first sight. I admit I am one of those guys who adore you even right now. You're really

vel.

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compared to others. Very special.

Maybe that's one of the reasons why

he can't let go of you," he said. I know he was referring to Travis.

"You know what? I can't find the words to describe how brave you are. But one thing I know, you are more than special," he chuckled. I don't understand what he's talking about.

"But the reason why I am here is not that." He paused in the meantime and looked at me with those serious eyes of his. This is the first time I saw him become serious.

'I really don't know why I suddenly

fell out of love with you. But there's still a part of me admiring you. You're such a lovely woman. It's just that it hurts seeing you like that. Why don't you try to take risks

again To find the answer to net

your

questions? Jaz, why don't you give him another chance? It's not being foolish or stupid. It means just trying again. If it doesn't work for the last time, then maybe you are not really for each other." I don't know, but his words captivate me.

I was lost for words.