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Kaya’s POV.
One moment ago, I was thinking about my life, confused at the very core of all the decisions that I’d made. I am wondering if this is actually what I want for myself or what someone wants for me. It’s so complicated, and at the same time, I feel stuck.
I feel like there’s no way that I can get out of this bondage, because just when I could have escaped one, I went deep into another.
I followed the path Olivia saw she could make for me.
Inside the woods, while the rain falls with heavy drops, beating at my skin, I have hidden myself under a large tree with quite deep roots and a heavy canopy from its many branches.
Now that I’m within nature, I feel nothing. I remember when I was at the cottage; the instant I walked into the woods, I had a full knowledge of every plant. I know what damage or repair they could do, and it always makes me happy. I would stay inside, speaking out my feelings like they were some books wherein I was writing a diary of my life.
It used to be fun, but now that I’m sitting here, touching the branch, I actually feel nothing until I connect my witch side to help strengthen me. Maybe.
It’s so crazy how time has changed everything and how it has never healed the wounds but only thickened them more.
Speaking of Olivia, she’s using me, and that’s the only explanation I could come to, because why else would she go against the alpha, telling how much of a light in the darkness that I am, yet she’s putting me in the middle of everything? She has been gaslighting me all these time without even my realization, using my sober state against me, using me like the once stupid girl that I was.
I’m not that girl anymore. I have grown.ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .
She’s the same one who tells the alphas not to stress, but when they needed me to kill the triplets, she put them in front. And shifting the tables to the triplets, I am more than glad that the plan did not work.
I have never killed a man before until these started. I think of all the tears that I’ve caused so far, the knights whom I have cursed with the use of my magic, the curse that I placed on the kingdom yet having full knowledge of its consequences on the beings there.
But they’ve caused me pain too, haven’t they?
No, if I am to be a balance, should I punish them?
I’m torn into shreds. I am in-between two decisions. Evil and good. Which would I choose in the end? Or else I’d only perish by living as a ghost, and that would only be the biggest mistake ever in my life because I’d be living with two regrets. One is the regret of not bringing back balance to this world. Two, the regret of not crushing all the people who’ve done me wrong.
I would lose on both ends.
I don’t want to think of it anymore, so I place my head on my kneecap, having pulled it up against my chest, and cry. I let out the tears, allowing them to fall and soak my already-soaked clothes. I’m able to let out the pain inside me because the rain is enough to overwhelm the sound of my very scream.
My body is trembling, but not from the cold. Only from not knowing who I am anymore. I wish I could talk to my mother, father, Williams, or just anyone that I’ve ever known to be good to me. I don’t even care if it is Melissa.
Then, I hear someone’s presence, and the hairs at the back of my head stand, goosebumps filling all the pores of my skin, only for my eyes to squint as I come to realize who’s kneeling before me.
Kade.
Wait, Kade?
Hastily, the temperature of my body has risen, and my nerves are spiking so high that I can almost not think well. What’s he doing here? How is he here in the first place?
I crushed the tunnel, so there’s no way he could have seen me.
Then, my brain rings at another warning. One of the triplets is three of them. If he’s here, then Kieran and Kyle must be here. That much, I know about my mates.
“What are you doing here?” I stretch my hands towards him, ready to shoot a ball of fire at him if he thinks he could hurt me.
He remains on his knees, his hands weakened next to his thighs, and his head hangs low as he stares at the earth.
“We never knew how much we’d hurt you, Kaya. We’ve come this far only to realize it. For once in our lives, we see the weakness, and when we feel it, we see how much damage it has caused. What fueled our anger to become the very monster that we are today if not for the damage that the darkness in this world has inflicted on us through people?” He raises his face at me, speaking on behalf of the three of them.
While I listen, I am not paying full attention because I still haven’t seen Kieran and Kyle, and I am ready to attack them if it is a trick of some kind. They’ve done enough.
“I know there’s nothing that I can use to convince you right now, Kaya, but please, you must see reason. You must understand that Olivia is trying to turn you against us.”
“You make that sound so bad.” I cock my head to one side with a light grin. I actually feel powerful.
And I love it.
He is still kneeling, remorse screaming all over his features, “because it is.”
“When you had all the powers, you didn’t realize this, did you? If I had never gained my powers to date, would you have seen these damages? Oh, now that I can hurt you back and you come with validation that you can see me, you can now see all of me, including all of my pain. Then, maybe-just maybe-you’d love to feel it’s wrath and see how it eats me within. After all, you’re the alpha. You’d want to sacrifice for your brothers, wouldn’t you?” To be honest, for a second there, I wanted to accept his apology, and to be honest with myself, my powers as a mage give me chances to know when a being is lying or being truthful, and I didn’t even need to utilize them before I realized that Kade was being truthful.
He speaks from his heart but from my own heart, assuming if it were only a stone, that would have been better, but it’s so built around heavy metal walls that won’t allow his words to penetrate them. I won’t fall for his words.
My eyes glow, and in the next minute, he’s flying into the air to hit his back against one of the tree trunks, just with the movement of my orbs. His back pierces into the trunk, hanging him right there. He cannot move anymore because his spinal cord is crushed by the trunk, and even if he tried to move, it would only hurt his heart.
“Stay still or you’ll die. The trunk is close to your heart.” My voice is loud, so he could hear.
“K…” Kade spits out blood.
“How does it feel to be weak, Kade?” Then, I twirl around and laugh. “Kieran, Kyle, come outside. Let’s play. We both know you can’t hide forever.”I scream out loud between fits of laughter and shrills.
“Yeah, you’ve become something else entirely.” Out of the woods, all of a sudden, I see Chester running outside to attack me, but I quickly stretch out my left hand and grab hold of him with the air around the neck. I’m choking him by tightening the air, pausing him from being able to talk, but then a wave washes over me, and I drop to the ground.
The rain splattering onto my face is the last thing I heard right before something that Kieran says.
“We’ll fix you, Kaya. I promise.”