ALWAYS AND FOREVER

Kathy PovContent rights by NôvelDr//ama.Org.

I spent the whole of the week at Louis or whatever his real name was, at first, I couldn’t bring myself to believe that what happened was true, but as the days went by, reality began to dawn on me, I still didn’t know what to do, I had no money with me, for the first two days I didn’t eat anything but I could only starve my self for just a short time, I had to eat and thankfully there was food in the fridge, I survived on them, but still the food available in the house was fast running out, every day I wake up and think of what I am going to do but nothing seemed to click, I ruined my life myself for believing and trusting a scammer, even when my friends and family told me to stay away, if only I had listened to Juliet, I wouldn’t be in this mess, not like there is much I could do right now, I may be sturbborn but I knew I was spoilt, I didn’t know how to do a lot of basic things, except cooking because my nanny made sure to teach me how to cook not to mention that I love eating, apart from cooking, i hated doing any other works, even if i looked for a job, just how long would I last?

I walked to the sitting room with a bowl of ice cream in my hands, I hadn’t combed my hair for days nor had I washed it but I didn’t care, I passed through the mirror and stopped to look at myself, I looked worn out and tired, my eyes were bloody red from crying and my hair was a raggy mess on my head, I tried to brush them back with my hands as hot tears gathered in my eyes again, that’s how I have been living for the past few days crying, sleeping, eating and crying and the circles go on.

I left the mirror and made my way to sit down, I checked my phone, even though I had turned it off for three days I turned it back on, I had nothing to live again, it would be better if my parents or Cross find me, that way I won’t end up killing myself, but no one called nor texted, every day I check my phone and it always silent, I didn’t want to call them, no I was scared to call them, my mom already threatened to disown me, and my credit cards have already been cut, I found out when I turned my phone on, which means they must have known about the money I removed from my account, I felt like a loser, I shouldn’t have trusted Louis, I thought he loved me but he turned out not to be, he saw me as a quick way to make money and I foolishly gave that to him easily, I felt fresh tears well up in my eyes and wiped them off.

I have cried enough these past few days to last me a lifetime, I didn’t know where more tears were coming from, I needed to pick it up and come up with a plan, I picked up my phone and decided to call any member of my family, my first stop was Nelson, but he didn’t pick up so I called Nathan instead, he too didn’t pick up, maybe they are both busy, I didn’t want to hear an ear full from my sisters but I had no choice, I needed to speak with someone, I couldn’t continue like this, if I continued like this I might end up killing myself, I called Nora and she picked, I let out a breath of relief begin speaking in a low tone.

“Hello, No?”

“Kathy? Is that you? Where are you, Katherine?”

“In Arizona,”

I answered sniffing back tears.

“Where in Arizona? We have been looking for you for one whole week, I shouldn’t even be talking to you, I would get in trouble,”

“What?”

“Mom, she warned you not to do anything you might regret right? I warned you too but you didn’t listen, if only you have listened to me, Kathy,”

“Nora,” I cried.

“I need to hang up Kathy, I don’t want my husband to come and meet me talking to you, our parents gave out instructions, we can’t talk to you or have anything to do with you, I am sorry Kathy, but you brought this on yourself, I have to go,”

“Nora, please, help me,”

I cried.

“There is nothing I or the others can do to help you, Kathy, just go beg mom and dad, they might take you back, as it stands now, your name has officially been removed from the family register,”

She revealed.

“What? So soon?”

I asked.

“Yes, after mom found out you withdrew a huge sum of money, she was furious and she pressured dad into removing your name, you should go talk to her, Kathy, she is the only one who can help you, I have to go,”

“Nora, pleas…”

She hung up before I could finish, I stared at the phone, as tears ran down my eyes, I should have thought it all through, I shouldn’t have trusted Louis so blindly, he didn’t give any sign, didn’t give any hint as to who he truly is but I couldn’t ignore the fact that I looked passed the red lights, there were a lot of them, he didn’t want to meet my parents, hated it when I introduced him to people, hated when I come to this house without telling him first and so on, there were so many red flags that I ignored, Juliet tried to warn me, even until two weeks ago when I met her in school, she warned me, but didn’t listen, I should have thought of a plan B, no I gave up all my resources to Louis.

I might look like a fool crawling back to my family but I didn’t have a choice, no I would go and see my mom and beg her to take me back, the earlier the better cuz I knew, they wouldn’t let me be in this city, even if I tried to get a job, even if I tried to get back on my feet, no matter how hard it would be, I knew what my mom could do, she would make sure no one employs me, the only way I can breath is leaving the country but I didn’t have any money on me, not even my passport, I had given them to Louis, and I didn’t know where he kept them, whether or not he took them with him, the only way to leave this country is money and I didn’t have any, so that leaves me with going home to my parents as Nora already said my siblings are not allowed to talk to me, my parents did the same to Nora, but they didn’t go as far as removing her name from the family register though, maybe that’s because Nora had left home before her engagement day and she had come back crawling even before the date.

My own was different, I embarrassed my family and that of Cross, I wondered what his plans are if he finds me, I remember his threats on that night and shivered in fear, what if he finds me first and tries to harm me? I couldn’t put that past him, that’s more reason I needed to see my mom.

My mind made up, I dug into the ice cream stuffing my mouth with it, it didn’t taste sweet nor sour in my mouth, it just felt tasteless just like my life, I ate more sniffing back tears and going through what I will say to my parent when I met them, I knew mom wouldn’t want to see me, my dad listens to my mom, if I can get through her them I can get back on my feet, I just have to get her to forgive me.

I would go over to the house tomorrow, I hoped she listens to me and take me back…